Thursday, October 6, 2016

Lullaby

There was this moment where my mind wouldn't stop wondering and
 the only thing that would keep it at peace was the thought of your dimpled smile
 and ridiculous laugh.
 The way you'd strum the cords to the lullaby you wrote me so many years ago.

Realization

It's that moment.
The one where you realize just how much you love someone.
You see them run their hand through their hair
or maybe how when they stretch their neck while leaning back and their
shirt goes up just a little bit
But the best moment?
When you stop caring about the world long enough to be engrossed in what they love
They stop over thinking and in that moment it's nothing but untapped passion
The way you step up to the mike and let your soul poor out
When your fingers become your life line as they fly over the neck of a guitar
How you feed off the energy of the crowd
Those moments and how you can see someone and how happy they are and how you get to
experience it with that
See how much you love something
Baby that's how much I love you.
You're my untapped passion and raw emotions.
You're the desire to make all my dreams come true.

Familiar Rain

I was wrapped around your best friends body when your words began to spill.
They whispered to me deep inside my head
The breathing escaping the depths of my chest
My lover pulled me closer believing I wanted more
When really all I cared about was hearing your velvet voice bounce inside my core
His hands were roaming from my hips to show me more of what liked about me
It was like the more I pulled away From you the more I heard.
I shook my head and ignored. Pulling my new man closer than before.
 Allowing myself to drown the old sorrow in new pleasures not yet explored.
The only way I knew to hear you was to let myself go free. Forget the last and just run wild.
This new flesh that touched me, so far from what I knew. Fumbling was not excused,
 as this new you began to seal my fate with the kiss he began to steal.
I ran away to save you, to merely save us both. I couldn't keep living on borrowed breath
. I whispered my good bye and ran away for good.
The boy I met a while back he was nothing more than that.
 The hide all my despair I pushed myself into something I knew wouldn't last.
He was arrogant and idiot really. 
Gentleman? Far from. But he took my mind if you and that's all I could ask.
So now I bite his shoulder hard and try to move along. Mumbled moans and hushed sighs fill the void.
Though I find myself under another it seems to me the only kind of pain I need it running away from you.

Under Another

I was wrapped around your best friends body when your words began to spill.
They whispered to me deep inside my head
The breathing escaping the depths of my chest
My lover pulled me closer believing I wanted more
When really all I cared about was hearing your velvet voice bounce inside my core
His hands were roaming from my hips to show me more of what liked about me
It was like the more I pulled away From you the more I heard.
I shook my head and ignored. 
Pulling my new man closer than before. 
Allowing myself to drown the old sorrow in new pleasures not yet explored.
The only way I knew to hear you was to let myself go free.
Forget the last and just run wild.
This new flesh that touched me, so far from what I knew. 
Fumbling was not excused,
 as this new you began to seal my fate with the kiss he began to steal.
I ran away to save you, to merely save us both. 
I couldn't keep living on borrowed breath.
I whispered my good bye and ran away for good.
The boy I met a while back he was nothing more than that.
The hide all my despair I pushed myself into something I knew wouldn't last.
He was arrogant and idiot really. Gentleman? 
Far from. But he took my mind if you and that's all I could ask.
So now I bite his shoulder hard and try to move along. 
Mumbled moans and hushed sighs fill the void.
Though I find myself under another it seems to me the only kind of pain
I need is running away from you.

Shiver



My body shook
Thousands of feet in the air
Not a care in the world
Millions of people stories below me my body hummed with the endless possibilities

My body shook
The wheels touched land as reality came back to me
Nothing would have come to mind if what would happen if you'd asked me before this moment
Spine tingling, I drive into an unknown situation

My body shook
Shivers running down my spine
I released the smile from between my lips.
Clenching my fists as I trusted the urge my body has to react to the closeness you had taken up
beside me

My body shook
My feet dangling from the tailgate
I let he lidless butt fall from my fingertips as you failed to impress me
My body forces to it realization

My body shook
As you cleaned closer, in anticipation of you're geekish smirk in orientation to the dog like
slobbered tongue quickly covered my entire face jaw to hairline

My body shook
Chasing another shiver from my body you caught with your eye, challenge me to end it with one answer
Giving in I'm rewarded with my first raw pinch on my left shoulder,
The bite still burning from your touch a shutter goes through me

My body shook
Your awkward and questionable one armed hug led us back into the house
Awkward as you are you pulled me closer, sharing the body heat you dared to share with me.
Prying to get close to me, to end the convulsing shivers you unintentionally caused

My body shook
The look of nerves overtaking your features as you debates if you want to do it

My body shook
Intention clear in your mind as you went in for the kill
Nibbles, teeth, skin and growls

My body shook
Scrapping of harsh hard things against my soft vulnerable flesh began a fire
I didn't know would be able to be put out

My body shook
I challenged back, not holding anything in
Jaw open wide, look of determination I went for the prey
Perfect aim, I took in the rougher skin, heavy breathing followed
Nails to the hot flesh and I takes them deep into the unwounded area of your strong lean back

My body shook
As you awkwardly slid your body on top of mine
Fumbling and attempting to caress me as you went.
Trying as hard I could I could compress the hardy giggle that ballooned from my chest.

My body shook
The night coming to an end
Pointing out my independence I kissed you softly on the lips as I turned my back
and walked out the door

My body shook
Anticipation ran deep in my veins as the ride home passed by in a daze
Quickly the sweetness was replaced with such a sick bitterness you'd think I'd downed a quart of oil
Independent things don't always land you in the places you want to be
True desires don't give you want you want ever time

My body shook
With stars up high the realization came with a start
A night that started in the sky floating with the clouds
It ended just as paralleled
With my feet on the ground digging into the dirt
Wishing to be above back to not worrying about a thing
Now longing for something I no longer had

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Bronzed Kisses

I've been writing a book for the past six years. Attempting and failing repeatedly until one night it all clicked. Here is peak at a story of two people that lose themselves and everything they thought they knew behind, to fight for something bigger. A story that will touch anyone who has experienced a lost love, a broken heart, grief, and life altering choices. This one is for those daydreamers that never gave up.



"I'm sorry, I just can't do this anymore Marcel. You're family hates me, I'm fighting to keep my head above water here. I just need to move on, on my own. I'm sorry." A single click and the dial-tone, that will haunt two souls, rings out. 


Five years. That's how long Cora had been running form her past, pretending to be a whole new person. Cora Mercer was a girl that had lost everything. Her father pulled the trigger, abandoned by her family, and the fear of letting anyone in had her run for a city she never had in her 10 year plan. The only person that had the power to bring the past into the present was hundreds of miles away. Exactly how she wanted it.

Five years. That's how long Marcellous  had been trying to make it in a city where nothing changed. A musician that has had his struggles and has finally got a straight line for a band that's tour could finally get him on the map and out of his hell hole of a home town. Until now, he had accepted that love was on the back burner for him after his high school sweetheart up and disappeared leaving him in the dust till she winds up in the rain outside the coffee shop he wonders out of.   


Tare Me Apart

Salty tears run down my cheeks as I realize the pain my heart is feeling.
 The broken glass my feet step on from your drunk tantrum slice deep while I continue to carry you to a safe place. 
You're life and destructive love consumes me.
 I'm sorry I can't walk away.

Culprit

Have you ever experienced that moment where your body heats up, hearts racing, every nerve in your body is overly aware of what's going on and it's all because of what you're looking at?

I have.

It's every single time I look at you.
I see the guy who follows his heart but has gotten lost along the way.

It's like my soul reaches out for you.

My body knows you're in the room before I do. A chill slide down my back and I have to see what the cause is.

With questioning eyes I look around trying to find the culprit.

My eyes lock with yours.

I forgot how beautiful they were.

The deepest shade of brown so piercing it overwhelms my heart

As I've got my arms around another's neck, you've got yours around some girls hips.

You're my brown eyed angel boy.

Simple Nights

I'll be spending my nights thinking of you.
The way your finger tips trace a sweet trail up to my cheek bone.
The callused pad of your thumb running across my lower lip.
The simple pleasure of love I see in your eyes.
The precious moments of your lips pressed to mine.

I'll be spending my nights thinking of you,
The way your strong arms keep the nightmares at bay.
The sweet sound of your calming breath lulling my to sleep ,
The waking to the sweet nothings you awaken me with.
And the simple way you are with me.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Searching Souls

Let me recognize your soul. 
Let me see us in my own heart to find you in this life.
No matter the era you shall be mine.
We will find each other and we will be together. 
Throughout the lives we let our souls seek each other's, never to rest until they rest together.